Entry #9
17 June 2025
Location: Not in front of a mirror.
What is up with our bodies when we reach the late 30s?
I swear it feels like I breathe and I gain weight.
In my 20s I can just look at the treadmill and I lose weight. In my 20’s post-partum body – whoosh goes back to normal. I remember I was the skinniest after giving birth to Mariam. Push baby out, stitch hoohaa back, get up and wear jeans.
Post-Idris?
Goshhhh.
Let’s just destroy all the mirrors in the house.
My sister will always scoff at me. “Shut up, you’re skinny,” she says when she compares our bodies. It’s not about comparing our bodies to one another. Yes, we can be thinner than the next person. But if we don’t feel at our most optimum, it still knocks us down. Your body is your own, not to be measured against another. And you will know when something is not the same anymore.
Except “not the same anymore” is probably the new norm of where our bodies are heading when we pass mid-30s.
And it’s not just me.